Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Going on a diet

I had at least three people this past weekend back at college tell me that I'd lost weight since graduating, including my good friend AT. All my pants are falling off my bum and I have perhaps two shirts that are tight-fitting, which is bad since I don't have much mammary tissue to show off to begin with and need all the help I can get.

That does it. I'm going on a seafood diet - i.e. you see food, you eat it. (yeah, yeah, old joke.)

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Duckies!

There were duckies in our parking lot (under construction) on Thursday.

Leaving, on a jet plane

I finally got tickets home (via Yatra Travel). They cost $1200+ including taxes, but that's not too bad considering I'll be flying in the middle of the summer and winter travel seasons. I'm taking Japan Airlines, so if anyone has experience with their economy class service, do leave a comment to let me know how it was.

Malaysia-bound:
-leave Chicago O'Hare 31 July
-arrive KLIA 2 August
US-bound:
-leave KLIA 20 December
-arrive Chicago O'Hare 21 December

To my initial dismay, I have a twenty-three-hour stopover in Narita. Nearly an entire day in an airport, bloody hell, I thought. Then AT pointed out that the time could be used to go out into the city. The Japanese Foreign Ministry says that "If the passengers of an airplane or ship that lands at an airport or seaport in Japan wish to enter Japan temporarily for shopping or rest, they can receive special landing permission from the immigration authority at the port of arrival even if they do not possess a visa." (See under C: Special Cases of Landing.) So yeah baby I'm going to see Tokyo!

Friday, May 26, 2006

Flap over HPV vaccine

A local weekly newspaper called Isthmus ran a story about how some religious conservatives in the US are trying to block administration of the new human papillomavirus vaccine (causes cervical cancer) to kids on the grounds that giving kids immunity to an STD would cause them to become promiscuous. I'm often pissed at Isthmus for making Christians out to be the bad guys by focusing on the right-wing nuts and rarely looking at the good stuff that Sally Army, Habitat for Humanity, local churches etc. do for society. But this time, in addition I'm pissed as hell at the idiots who are trying to stop the vaccine...my level of respect for James Dobson is very near zero.

Wow...writing letters to newspapers all the time...I'm turning into a female version of that old Bulbir Singh fella in Seremban who keeps getting printed the M'sian English dailies. Last time I went home several people said "I like your essay" and I thought "What essay?" until I realized they were referring to the epistles that I periodically shot off to The Star while in college, which I never found out if they got printed or not since readers' letters don't always come up on the website.

Then again, I'm always afraid of my tendency to go off half-cocked about news.

Ooh, on the plus side, my letter about Neil Gaiman's Asian fanbase was published in this month's issue of WIRED (it's near the bottom of the page). I'm a happy kitty. Have decided that one of my life goals is to become famous enough to be featured in WIRED and National Geographic, the two coolest magazines on earth.


Dear Editor,

I am baffled by the lack of reason which has led some people to fear that vaccinating children against an STD would increase risky sexual behaviour among teenagers. Allow me to present an analogy. In Malaysia, my home country, adult disapproval for teenage sex is generally stronger than in the United States. However, in secondary school, there comes a day when all the girls are pulled out of class and sent to the school nurse's office for rubella "jabs". (Vaccinations for children of school age are mandatory and administered for free in Malaysia.) This is because rubella, or German measles, can cause birth defects. By no stretch of the imagination does this mean that our moderate Muslim government encourages large numbers of pregnant 15-year-olds. It simply makes more sense to administer the vaccine at a time when children can be tracked to make sure that they get it - and women do not have to worry about their immune status later in life when they get pregnant, planned or not.

In general, I feel that Americans, having been insulated for decades by effective vaccination campaigns against many diseases still affecting other parts of the world, fail to appreciate the power of vaccines. Searching for the word on the Internet brings up a slew of websites condemning the idea of protecting one's children from disease on the grounds that vaccines cause allergies, cause autism, are too expensive, are a scam by the pharmaceutical industry, et cetera. While on the other sides of the Atlantic and Pacific, children die or are crippled by pathogens like polio and measles that are so easily defeated here.

Finally, given the teaser phrase "What Would Jesus Do?" on the front page of that issue, I am extremely disappointed that Isthmus didn't bother to take statements from Christian doctors or researchers who support the vaccine, but instead took the "religious right" to be the sole voice of the body of Christ. Many doctors and biologists are in their respective professions partly because they believe that healing and protecting people is what Jesus would do. In St. John's vision, he described the tree of life growing in the kingdom of God, "...and the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations." Many of us are trying to bring that healing into the present world.

Funniest headline EVAH

Alaskan bird droppings arrive

- Wisconsin State Journal, 26 May 2005. I laughed so hard everyone in the office suite must have heard.

"Robots will extract genetic material from the samples, pool the material into wells on lab plates, and heat and cool the collections until they glow if H5N1 is present."
I did get to watch the PCR robot in action a couple of weeks ago...super bloody cool. Forgot what the manufacturer's name was otherwise I'd put a link to the site.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

The Great Firewall of China

One of my friends is in Tianjin for the summer to learn Mandarin. He's had his first run-in with Chinese censorship. o_O

[21:06] Steve: err
[21:06] me: whoa! are you in china?
[21:06] S: hehe
[21:06] me: what tie is it over there?
[21:06] S: hayo
[21:06] S: err
[21:06] S: wo zai zhong gua
[21:07] me: woohoo! dao tianjin le ma?
[21:07] S: asdf
[21:07] S: i'm having problems with the censoring software
[21:07] S: i have to find a diffrent internet caffee

On the plus side, cybercafes are super cheap there...in Shanghai during the summer of 2002 I found a place in Shanghai that was RMB8/hour, which was about USD1 at the time.

Spore game

Computers have been used to study evolution for a long time, especially the molecular side of it, since any organism's genome or even a single gene is a huge long string of data. Esoteric mathematical methods which I'd really really like to learn about (really wish they'd implemented the science-oriented com.sci course at Lawrence before I graduated*, or that I'd taken more maths) are used to generate diagrams called phylograms, which you can think of as "family trees" for a given group of critters/plants.

They're also used to simulate evolution. This is mostly done by really hardcore biology and artificial life geeks, but some consumer software has allowed "normal" people to dabble as well, notably Gameware's Creatures, which is a super cute virtual pet game as well as being a cool artificial life and artificial intelligence engine. Some people become hardcore tinkerers, creating ingenious objects and metarooms to add on to the prepackaged worlds. Before C3 came out, one person made a version of the C2 norns with modified brains that were smarter, called Canny Norns. (free download of Creatures: Docking Station for PC and Linux, haha no Mac version suckers)

I read about Will Wright's upcoming Spore (Flash site, may take a while to download if you don't have broadband) a while ago and was very excited. Since Wright is the guy behind the Sim____ franchise, I guess it's the spiritual heir to the abysmal SimLife, which I tried a long time ago and got fed up with almost instantly. Spore looks great, though.

Unfortunately, the website (here's the front page if you want to skip the intro) has fairly minimal information and no release date. Lot of nice screenshots and very positive press, though.

*I did take CMSC 150, back when it was taught in C++ instead of Java, and liked it enough that I went on to CMSC 200. Much to my surprise I ended up sharing the Sophomore Prize in Computer Science with a com.sci major that year. After that people kept saying "Wait, I thought you were a com.sci major..." Probably have forgotten 90% of what I learned. Keep telling myself I'll get back to it and haven't for years =P

Ooh...Wanginya!

I used to get a few compliments on my perfume. The irony is that I didn't wear perfume qua perfume until recently, when I realized that I now have some actual disposable income. then I went to Bath and Body Works to buy nice lotion instead of the $2 Walgreens stuff, and also buy some spray-on scent. A bit of a momentous life decision, since for reasons of pride (don't like being too girly) and ethics (why waste money on smelly crap when there are so many urgent needs in the world?) I don't want to become dependent on bottles and bottles of unguents. In lab this morning, however:

"I love that stuff you're wearing. Freesia, right?" SS had asked me about it before. She seemed pleased at the time that I was doing something girly, in an aunty-like way, perhaps.
"Yeah, from Bath and Body Works."
"It smells so nice."

Then I realized that even though I was in fact wearing freesia perfume, I hadn't applied the spray this morning...the scent was in my deodorant!

Didn't say anything ^_^

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Bunny love


Roommate's rabbits in a calmer moment. Brown bunny matches the carpet remarkably well. Unfortunately the pictures I took while they were actually snuggling were hopelessly blurry because I didn't use flash on those.

Divebomb


My workplace is on the outskirts of town. It's near a major highway but surrounded by trees, and the compound (yes, it's in a fenced compound; government lab) is filled with prairie grasses, so we get a lot of birds. I saw two crows harrying a hawk the other day, and again today. They would circle above it and then take it in turns to swoop down. The hawk would dodge sideways with a swinging motion like a motorcyclist rounding a sharp curve. After a while one of the crows dropped off and the other continued chasing it higher up and away to the north. The structure is a gigantic TV tower that looks like it's at least a couple hundred meters tall.

Crows are pretty awesome. I like them. They don't get enough credit for being fascinating creatures since they're not all mythological like ravens. One of the most entertaining moments on my morning commutes recently was watching a young crow try to land on a spruce tree. The branch would keep going BOING and he would flap to keep his balance, take off a bit, land again, and...BOING.

And, I mean, attacking a hawk...would you dare to chase away a 300-pound gorilla barehanded if it came near your house?

Cucumber trick

Someone else please tell me they know this trick of getting the bitterness out of cucumbers? I can't remember where I learned it...either from my mum or from some girl at school. You cut a small slice of one end and rub the cut surfaces vigorously together and it draws out the bitter latex from the skin. Presumably the latex dries and becomes sticky on contact with the air so it sticks to itself. Works a treat, but several other people I've asked had no idea.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Slightly larger worms

“A simple speech on nationalism and patriotism without any positive action is akin to baiting sharks with worms,”
- Chan Wei Ming, MCA Club Australia president quoted in The Star, May 6, 2006 (We are not mercenary, say Malaysian students)

Malaysian specialist doctors will be rewarded with an “instant” pay rise of about RM4,000 if they were to return home and serve the country.

Health Minister Datuk Dr Chua Soi Lek said they would immediately move up from the Grade U41 salary scale of RM3,000 to Grade U48 of RM7,000.
in The Star, May 22, 2006 (RM4,000 jump for Malaysian medical specialists who return)

Government hospitals were paying specialists RM 4k? Oh well...slightly larger worms, we're making progress. =P

Chat over coffee

Just came back from having coffee with Jodi (the professor with whom I travelled to the Philippines last July. She just came back from her annual trip - it was the dry season, typhoons just beginning to sweep the western Pacific region around now, so amazingly she doesn't have a set of spectacular leech bites this time. She says my bat comic was passed around at the WCSP meeting (Wildlife Conservation Society of the Philippines) and seemed popular, so I'm a happy kitty ^_^

She was on the opposite side of Mt. Isarog (we were on the side near Ocampo town last year) and apparently it wasn't as interesting as she'd hoped...oh well. They did catch 9 more of that funny Rhinolophus from last year (might be a new species...ooo) but no more Myotis rufopictus.

The Philippines is a biodiversity hotspot, but unfortunately, due to the brain drain, there are something like 5 Filipino wildlife biologists with PhD's in the country, according to Jodi. Kesian lah.

Some pictures from her trip here.

One of the other things I asked her about was a seminar at the big Methodist church in Appleton which was based on this book, "When Science Meets Religion : Enemies, Strangers, or Partners?" Apparently several Lawrence profs were involved in it - Jodi talked about evolution, a mathematician* talked about quantum physics, a psychologist talked about neuroscience, and a geologist talked about deep time.

Granted, the Methodist church in the US is inclined to liberal theology (to the point where my father, who's a Methodist pastor, was somewhat upset when I started attending one in college), but on the other hand the church I go to now is an Evangelical Free and the pastor had a UW ecology prof talk about climate change and the environment in a sermon about "The Future" a couple of weeks ago.

Churches, as organizations with the goal of bringing people closer to God, have to realize that for some, asking questions about God's creation is part of that. However, by no means is being knowledgeable about science an essential part of faith - it's a question of conscience, I think. If you feel that you need to know about a certain field or a certain idea in order to be at peace, then it's right to go out and learn about it. If you're fine not being an expert, that's okay too. In some ways simple faith is the purest kind. (Just try not to be too opinionated if you're not familiar with something.)

I'm thinking of the James Clerk Maxwell quote I had in my email sig for a long time:

Christians whose minds are scientific are bound to study science that their views of the glory of God may be as extensive as their beings are capable of.

*This person has a pet hedgehog, flying squirrel, and rabbit. They're all named after female mathematicians. I once had a dream that she was opening a zoo.


Speaking of the rufopictus, tattoo update: 35 days post-inking.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Hazmat

Note to self: avoid doing things that remind older women that they're...older.

This week our lab was trying to get some old reagents cleared out, and I was in charge. SS was showing me a box of small bottles with variously ominous labels.

"These are probably too old to work properly, aren't they?" I said.

"Oh yeah, look at this one, it's twenty-four years old."

I looked at the label and giggled. "It's older than me!"

SS stared. "How old are you?"

"Twenty-three in July."

Then it occurred to me that the stock date written on that bottle was probably in her handwriting. So, hazardous materials can be hazardous in more ways than the chemical >_<


The ancient bottle turned out to be ammonium sulfate. Trying to figure out what to do with it was a bit of a headache because UW's Chemical Safety and Disposal Guide says you can flush it down the sink. Several MSDS's that I found online (example), however, say it has to be disposed of by a hazardous waste contractor...hmm.

So I decided to be lazy and wash it down the sink. Started with the smallest bottle. Stopped when I saw white fumes coming from it. o_O

Also, the chemical sounded really familiar, so when I got home I whipped out my box of Revlon Custom Effects and looked at the ingredients.

Highlighting Powder contains: Potassium persulfate, sodium persulfate, sodium metasilicate, ammonium persulfate...
Developer contains: Aqua ((water) eau)), hydrogen peroxide...

Under the "Incompatibilities" section of various MSDS's for this chemical are listed "hydrogen peroxide", "sodium peroxide", and "other oxidizers [pdf]".

Hmm...the stuff's been on for the better part of an hour and my head hasn't gone terbaboom yet.

Going to shampoo.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Phases: Blood Sacrifice

Wrote this for my Phases column which I share with Tee Shern Ren. Sarah Lee bitching me out for being late again because I forgot which week it was =P



The mice freeze as I open the “shoebox” cage: a polycarbonate box with a simple steel grille top that holds brown pellets of rodent diet and a water bottle. Eight clear eyes peer up from little faces sweet as a bed of pansies. One animal rushes into a corner of the cage; the others hold their ground, paws planted squarely, vibrissae whiffling around as my hand invades their little world. The lilac spots on their pure white fur – crystal violet marks for identification – add to the enchanting effect. I scoop up the first mouse with one hand and grasp her tail with the other.

I have read that mice sing in the ultrasonic. Roald Dahl wrote a story called “The Sound Machine” about a man who found a way to hear the voices of plants, and was driven mad when he cut a tree and heard it scream. I wonder if I could hear this mouse crying out now, perhaps by using a bat detector. He who has ears, let him hear. One of the guidelines for evaluating pain and distress in laboratory animals is that if a procedure would be painful if performed on a human, it should be considered to be painful in an animal.

“I did some calculations and figured out that for a twenty-gram mouse, a hundred-microlitre injection [one tenth of a millilitre] is the equivalent of injecting a six-pack of beer into your leg.” Flash back to a seminar on laboratory rats back in March - the man holding the white rat is lecturing us about appropriate volumes of blood samples and injections. Back in the present, I grit my teeth seeing how quickly my coworker pushes the plunger down, injecting our little friend with the vaccine we’re testing. Slow down, I want to tell her, imagining the stream shooting into my own thigh, under such high pressure that it hits nerves like a steel spike. I can’t. She has had more years of experience than I have of life.

She refers to all our animals – white mice, and cotton rats, a North American rodent - as “it” or the generic “him”, even though they’re all female. Perhaps after a time one no longer sees them as individuals, so sex doesn’t matter. I don’t think, however, that scientists see their animals as mere tools, as the animal-rights groups would have us believe. Maybe some do, but the irony is that many researchers and technicians who work with laboratory animals are in their jobs because they have an awe and respect for life, as I do. Careers that allow us to study the wonders of life often put us in positions of causing harm and pain. To deal with the emotional conflict, people develop coping strategies – thinking of the animals as objects to be processed when you have to give them shots, using euphemisms like “challenge” instead of “infect”, and so on.

Why am I doing this? I ask myself. “Because it’s my job” is a totally stupid answer. A slightly better one might be “To save endangered species”, since our goal is to develop a vaccine that can protect black-footed ferrets and prairie dogs against a deadly disease. However, this is only partly satisfactory. Even though the extinction of a species is an irredeemable tragedy, is it only an artificial distinction to say that one group of animals is more important than the other? And in science, there is always the possibility that your invention will not work, and the animals have been killed to prove a negative, a null hypothesis.

I don’t care much for animal rights activists. A lot of self-professed animals lovers are fuzzy-minded pet hoarders who regard their cats and dogs like children, saying “Animals have feelings too” without ever considering the feelings of the chickens, sheep, and cows that died in the mechanised chaos of an abattoir to feed their babies. A few others are literal terrorists who blow up labs and threaten life-saving research, valuing the lives of scientists and technicians about as much as a member of Al Qaeda values those of infidels. Even though I scorn those who say humans and animals are equivalent, I still feel and believe that animal life is of great value and cannot – must not – be taken lightly. I learned this the hard way when, as a ten-year-old, I broke open a cicak egg to look at the embryo. The pink baby lizard twitched this way and that for a few minutes and then died. The guilt that pierced me was sudden and unforgettable.

The argument against the concept of “animal rights” is based on the humanist idea of the social contract. This is an implicit agreement that if one does certain things for other people, other people should do certain things in return. Animals don’t have the ability to participate in this contract with humans. In fact, we can hurt animals by trying to force them to think and interact with us as other humans do, because they simply can’t (this is called “theory of mind”, assuming that your pet is like you). Acknowledging that they’re beings with different minds and senses is not belittling them in any way.

If animals do not have rights in that sense, where do our obligations toward them come from? Human responsibility toward animals begins to make sense if one looks at it from the theistic perspective. All life comes from the Giver of life, and no conscious life is a toy to be taken apart and thrown away at random, but a fellow creation.

To guide my conscience, I keep in mind what CS Lewis wrote about vivisection (an old word for experimentation on animals, literally meaning to “cut alive”): “If on grounds of our real, divinely ordained, superiority a Christian pathologist thinks it right to vivisect, and does so with scrupulous care to avoid the least dram or scruple of unnecessary pain, in a trembling awe at the responsibility which he assumes, and with a vivid sense of the high mode in which human life must be lived if it is to justify the sacrifices made for it, then (whether we agree with him or not) we can respect his point of view.” May my care be such that whatever comes of this work be worth the blood I take and the pain I inflict.

In the Biblical creation story, the first people were told to “take care” of the garden of paradise. They were the first naturalists, giving names to all the animals that God showed them. In primitive societies and in parts of the developing world today, people still have economic and cultural dependencies on the animals around them. Recall Jesus’ rhetorical question about rescuing an animal that fell into a well on the Sabbath. In this day and age when animal flesh is bought and sold as a commodity (a friend told me that her cousin from KL screamed and ran away the first time she saw a live chicken), we might do well to consider the sacrifices of the Old Testament and other ancient societies. They were reminders that people might manage flocks and herds, but that life ultimately belonged to God.

The second mouse is marked with a lilac spot on her head. I reach out and take her up by the tail...

  • ILAR Journal: from the Institute of Laboratory Animal Research has papers about the ethics of using animals in research, refinement of procedures using animals, and how scientists are affected by what they do.
  • Jon Katz on Slate.com: a writer (nonfiction as well as novels) who’s kept and keeps several dogs, examining the ways we connect with them as companions with different minds.
  • Is Humane Slaughter of Fish Possible for Industry? a little weird and random to include here, but just because they’re cold-blooded and live in the water doesn’t mean we shouldn’t consider their treatment. Plus, killing fish more quickly and painlessly makes for better-tasting filets...my precious.
  • World's Scientists Admit They Just Don't Like Mice: This one’s a joke. The Onion is a satirical newspaper that makes stuff up.

Like ships in the night

SN, my roommate whom I've known for nearly five years and lived with for nearly two left for home (India) today. When she returns, it'll be only to pick up her stuff and move to North Carolina for med school. Another friend is leaving for China and won't be back till after I've left for Malaysia in August.

The hardest goodbyes are not the ones precipitated on you by taxi, bus, or plane. Those require little mental effort, since circumstances force you apart. The hardest are the ones where, with nothing immediately pressing, you have to finally get up and walk away from a friend, knowing you might not see them again for a very long time.

Monday, May 15, 2006

Overheard

"I had such a great weekend. My gecko finally started eating. I'm so happy." - one of the animal care technicians at work

You'll only think this sounds lame if you've never had a herp pet that steadfastly refused to eat while you ran around wringing your hands crying Oh help my lizard/snake/frog is starving to death.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

The long dark tea-time

There are major problems with thinking of God in the abstract. The Christian
God is very much a theistic one, therefore one can't fully claim to be a
Christian while largely thinking and behaving like a deist. This is what I did
throughout childhood till age 15 (I was a very unhappy pastor's kid).

What snapped me out of it was a girl at a camp I got sent off to. Of course I was bored and miserable through most of the camp; at that age I didn't deal well with being thrust suddenly into situations full of strangers. They were almost all ABCs, and ABCs are too weird for me. The last night was an open mic night where they darkened the meeting hall and let people say whatever they wanted to. Most people said the typical sort of things you hear at the end of church camps, like thank you all so much for ministering to me, or God has changed me here, or I've learned so much and met so many good people, et cetera. Then one girl came up. Since it was dark you couldn't see the speaker's face.

And she said:

When I leave this camp, I'm planning to go to a pharmacy and buy some pills. I was planning to kill myself. I don't love anyone. I'm so proud.
And she cried, and some counselors and some of her friends went away with her...


And I realized I was a knife's edge away from being in her place, and wasn't quite sure what was keeping me from it.

It does you no freaking good to believe there is a God if you don't ever look at him. I have to remember that, sometimes.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Playboy bunny

My roommate RB has two really! stupid! rabbits. The black and white one is super hamsup. And the beige one sits still and lets him hump her when she's in heat. Then she gets annoyed and urinates on him for biting her. And he's neutered. Weird.

Oh yah...sometimes he can't even figure out which end he's supposed to be working on. (No, I don't think rabbits are capable of fellatio.)


I like the brown one better - more lively, less neurotic. And she matches our carpet =D

Like a dancer

I'm not an athlete, so the only time I keep track of as a PR (personal record) is how fast I can get to work. Today I beat myself, I think - 23 minutes, trumping the 25 I'd timed before. It's 3.7 miles so that makes about 9.65mph (15.4km/h). Yeah, slow, but it's uphill most of the way. Also my back wheel is out of true so adjusting my brakes is an optimization between safety and not having the brake pads rubbing all the time.

As above, I'm not a competitive person, but it's a fun feeling to know my muscles are getting stronger. When I first started at my job, I had to huff and puff up the last big hill in first gear, and sometimes even go to the "granny gear" (the small chainring). Now I usually go up in fourth gear, en danseuse ("like a dancer", standing up on the pedals). The other day I climbed the entire hill in fifth gear without realizing that I hadn't shifted down...whew. Haha.

Aside from the obvious - how well all the bits on the bike are adjusted/lubricated, weather conditions, what I had for breakfast - I've discovered that my state of mind has a suprising effect on how fast I can push. Things that make me go faster:

  • Nice dreams the previous night
  • Having heard interesting news on the radio at breakfast
  • Accessories - Bike light came in the mail today, 3 weeks late. I asked the seller for a refund liao. Haish.
  • Seeing wildlife - there was a really funny scene the other day where a young crow was trying to land on a spruce tree and he had to keep flapping his wings to balance because the tree kept going BOING. Wish I'd gotten my camera out in time to shoot video of that.
  • Good music - I usually listen to Wisconsin Public Radio, which plays classical, on my Cube in the morning. Pieces that are kinda vivace are good, especially if the beat matches my cadence. On the other hand, the Butterfingers album I ordered from Amazon on Friday came yesterday. Grunge is good too, apparently. It sort of accentuates the heady feeling of fragility that cycling in rush hour traffic gives me - skirting the edge of suicide.

On the downside - I'm TOO FREAKING SKINNY now. It's weirding me out that my ribs my ribs are easily visible not only at the lower part of my ribcage, but also below the collarbones where you can see where they connect to the sternum. And my pants are all loose without exception; even the black ones that used to look sharp and were just a little tight are now falling off my backside. Drat. Have to go clothes shopping. I hate clothes shopping. I'm a horrible dresser. Look like a beggar. =P

Monday, May 08, 2006

Very ill-timed humour (mine always is)

Sent the following email to a friend:

----- Original Message -----
From: xenobiologista
Date: Monday, May 8, 2006 2:39 pm
Subject: Still alive?
To: JB

> Hey man,
> haven't seen you for a while. How's your thesis project coming along?
> Ho boh? You're staying here for the summer right?

Got the following reply back:

Good question. Broke right wrist, fractured three front teeth. On pain
meds. Weeeeee.

Choy choy choychoychoy.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

hovered over the surface of the waters

Note below in bold text...something was pointed out to me by a reader.

Random thought (I watched the BBC's very well-animated Walking with Dinosaurs series last night and yesterday):

The "creationists" in the US who are fighting the teaching of evolution in schools are totally missing the point. They're making the same bloody mistake as hardline anti-religion evolutionists like Dawkins: mistaking evolution for an ideology.

It's a fantastic tool, both for figuring out how life got to be the way it is, understanding how it works, and possibly even for developing software and other technologies. But no more. Very few would accept it as a system for telling us how we should live in relation to one another and to our inner selves (social Darwinism = strength is power = fascism), therefore it is not an ideology. By treating it as one in their fight, creationists are giving it more power than it deserves and more credibility to the anti-religion groups who use it as a tool to "disprove" God.

(EDIT: It has been pointed out to me that I mis-phrased part of the preceding paragraph in a way that could be read as saying that Dawkins et al. are fascists. I didn't mean that, and the person who pointed it out (you know who you are...fanboy) says that Darwin's Rottweiler "says that if you want to build a kinder, gentler society, you have to know that biology's against you." My point was that even the vast majority of people who are trying to use evolution as an ideological pillar recognize that it's far from being a comprehensive one, and on some points downright viscerally unacceptable.)

Another point they're missing is that our mission on earth is not to insist upon the literal truth of the first chapter of Genesis (just because I don't think it's to be taken literally doesn't mean I don't think it's a beautiful illustration of how God creates and sustains the world, btw). Our mission is to "go and make disciples of all nations...teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you."

Not to "go and make fools of yourself" by ignoring decades and centuries of careful research and thought. Fighting the wrong enemy creates an atmosphere of fear and antagonism that totally goes against the idea that we follow a God of love. Part of this story was really disturbing. (Not available online to non-subscribers...dang.) The lady* who made the front-page discovery of soft tissue in a T. rex bone a while ago happens to be a Christian. As a result, she came under attack by creationists for not using the discovery to support the idea that the Earth is only a few thousand years old. She wisely told them that if their attacks had been the only thing she knew about Christianity, she'd run away.

There is so much more work out there that Christians should be doing yet there's people wasting time, money, and most importantly, faith, on this. So frus.


I think the "intelligent design" movement, although based on erroneous ideas, is somewhat encouraging in that it represents a shift of the hardcore religious "conservatives"** away from insisting on the model of God making the world as if out of Plasticine.

(Francis Bacon on the subject:

"And as for the conceit that too much knowledge should incline a man to atheism, and that the ignorance of second causes should make a more devout dependence upon God, which is the first cause; first, it is good to ask the question which Job asked of his friends: "Will you lie for God, as one man will lie for another, to gratify him?" For certain it is that God worketh nothing in Nature but by second causes; and if they would have it otherwise believed, it is mere imposture, as it were in favour towards God, and nothing else but to offer to the Author of truth the unclean sacrifice of a
lie."
Here's the book it came from.)


I think that from this point, they'll move to a further compromise position of saying that yes, life arose and developed by natural selection, but the selection process was supernaturally manipulated at points. And eventually moving from there, even the most rigid will eventually be able to accept the description of life as written by science.

And then maybe we'll finally be able to appreciate all the wonders of life on earth. In the middle ages, monks wrote bestiaries of fantastic animals, making allegories of theological concepts with them. They were frequently mistaken - for instance, the pelican was supposed to represent Jesus because it stabbed itself in the breast to feed its young with the blood - although creative and beautifully illustrated. But I think that this is one important thing that the religion vs. science conflict has taken away from us is the ability to see the natural and the supernatural worlds as reflections of each other. It's all there - birth, death, friendship, deception, love, conflict, war and peace, cruelty, mercy, sacrifice.


*She's also the one who discovered what looked like medullary bone - stores calcium for eggshells - in a T. rex leg, thus providing a potential way to tell mummy dino from daddy dino.
**Note I'm placing all American terminology in quotation marks because I find it annoying that these things have become political buzzwords to the point that they don't mean the dictionary definition any more so you can't use them sensibly.

Monday, May 01, 2006

My precious

The kind of jewellery I like is the kind you can put on and forget - earrings small enough to sleep and shower with, necklaces strong enough to not break when caught carelessly on clothing, and - rings. My first ring was a cheap piece of colourless metal with a small uncut tigereye glued on it. Then my hand got slammed under some weights in Phys Ed and that was the end of that. The second was a loop of some copper wire I found in an electronics classroom. The metal had a beautiful red coating - not plastic insulation, just some sort of translucent lacquer. I twisted the ends into spirals in imitation of a ring I saw on a female classmate. Lost that...got several meters more copper wire for free from an electrical repair shop in Melaka...made another. This one was two rounds of the wire with the ends twisted around the loop. Lost that too...made another one, since I had plenty of wire. A few iterations later I ran out of my supply.

Oh yes, I'm an idiot...drew this as practice with my drawing tablet, didn't realize that making the background transparent wouldn't be a good thing for a blog with a dark blue background.

Recently I went to the nearby Ace Hardware store to see if they had anything I could use. I found some 14 gauge stuff. The salesman had a very funny "WTH?" look on his face when he asked me "How much?" and I said "Three feet." You must have a very small house, lady...

As I'd suspected, 14 ga was too thick to manipulate into the knotlike configuration I'd used before, so I left it for a while. Then I got some flat circular tigereye beads from a craft shop. It's the first time I've made any jewellery in a long while.

Note I normally wear rings on my right middle finger, not left thumb - it was just an easier position for taking pictures. It seems to balance the sensation of the wristwatch on my left arm. Having a ring to fiddle with also cuts nail-biting somewhat as a displacement behaviour =P

Making things for myself is fun...but it makes me feel selfish. Sometimes I think I should make presents for my female friends, but i'm afraid they'd find them too tasteless to wear.